Every day I wake up in the morning and before I even get out of bed in the morning – right to the laptop. I’m a busy girl which means I’m working non-stop… even when it looks like I’m not. It may seem like I’m screwing around on message boards and tweaking code to the point of obsession, but it is not wasteful. It is work.

So you would think that promoting myself as an adult model would be easy since I’m already used to living on the computer, but it’s not, and it doesn’t in and of itself pay the bills. It only helps foster the relationships that create the opportunities to make the money with which to pay the bills. Anything you do today is not likely to provide a return today so staying motivated is tough.

But beyond that is the conversation about how one balances promotional work with the work itself. Personally, I use astral projection which allows me to be in two places at once. See? I just go into a trance state and separate my spirit from my body. It’s easy. Really!

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Ok, not. But seriously, the reason I bring this up is because I have spent the last two weeks promoting my shoot soon to be released on Yum and realized two things. First, I won’t get the exposure necessary to be picked up by other production companies until at least after my photosets are released. Secondly (and actually I knew this one beforehand), it’s nearly-impossible to make a reasonable living just by working with the big boys.

I have a background in webcam and phone sex. I first worked for Ifriends with my ex when we first met 8 years ago. This was back when you could still get away with a grainy Wal-Mart webcam and a 56k modem. I now use a Panasonic DVC with sound and a high speed connection on Niteflirt along with Skype, Yahoo, and Eyeball Chat. Oh my how times change! Now it’s so easy to find high quality ass in high quality video – like mine! Life is good right? 😉

But I never log on. I’ve been distracted, overworked, lethargic. But I think I’m ready. I think I can commit to being more available. I have changed my listings to reflect the new changes in my career and I’m ready to go. I’M MOTIVATED! Won’t you come join me? 🙂 xoxo

~BB~